In response
to your question about How I do perceive
Elokim is? I have to say he is a
constant presence in my life. To explain this I have need to draw on an
allegorical language.
Sometimes I
perceive Him like the sun is, but Elokim is not the sun, this is a very
important matter to establish. At sunrise in the glow of the first rays of the
sun, I can to contemplate the greatness of his glory and I feel immensely rich
and feel me so much loved because he did
that morning, especially to me, for my contemplation. At dusk, I stop to marvel
again of his glory, of his creativity. At both ends of the day, I must to say
to him thank you for giving me life, and thank you for to prolong the days of
my existence.
When no
start or end my day on this perception I understand that my dissatisfaction is
the evidence of the absence of Elokim. It's like at night, when the eyes cannot
to see the brightness of the light, all of us feel fear, anxiety, and uncertainty.
But hope to
know Elokim is there on the other side of darkness, supporting to me in his
"absence" and avoiding me succumb to despair, blindness, and fear.
Thus I can expect quiet his return into my life.
At days of
my faults or in my days of folly, when I pretend not see or nor listen, close
my eyes and it's like I did not have to see nothing neither than did not have
to give anybody account about my facts and sins, but I know He is present and
shining around although I am intent to deny him yet.
Similarly
happens to me, when in the confusion that follows from confronting the old
paradigms of what I was taught by religions, and I sink into the deep darkness
of uncertainty, doubt, logic of rationalization, and blind speculation. In the
end, he emerges slowly but firmly, irrevocably. Eternal. Inscrutable.
In my time
of sanity and prudence, I always perceive him in all his work, and I am amazed
at its perfection, and its power. In the peace that fills me, Its love that
comes over me in his undeserved mercy, in his patience. Elokim The Lord It's my
last and persistent security, my portion and my inheritance.
I take a
look outside and inside myself. Outside, because the heavens tell of us his
glory, and inside to me because I need him more than air, or water, to stay
alive. I try and not figure out who or what is. But what I find is, that in
light of changes in knowledge and human thought, Elokim is not an
anthropomorphic figure as taught by religion.
However, all
things that I could compare to him, is not him, rather than a manifestation of
his power and his work. Guernica, the famous picture of Picasso, is not
himself, but it is the expression of the mind of Picasso.
Elokim is
not an abstraction, It is not a concept, It is
not the matter or the energy linked at matter. It is the source of both.
Elokim is mind, will, power, greatness, perfection, imperishable, immutable,
fullness, life,from whom, we are a likeness, the infinitesimal expression of
his glory. Our human imperfection makes us completely dependent on him to
maintain us righteousness and aspire to perfection and holliness.
Elokim is
the source of my life and my goal, Elokim is the only truth. And knowledge of
him is eternal life.
So friend
Jacob, subject to what I can to say of Elokim today and maybe I have missed too
much to say of him. Because its revelations are gradually, I can to say to you,
how he has shown to me and how I understand to him today, and I am sure
certainly I will say much more to Elokim in the future. Because He is gradually
revealed to our ruach, as He wants.
Lastly,
about if I think I can communicate physically with Elokim? I think so, but I
also believe that we can reach him from inside the heart, in silence. But I
think also that I must even I grow in faith. Because I believed in the same God
than Eliyah believed, but I still feel I have not reached like Eliyah's faith,
strong, firm, full. My faith even is like a mustard seed waiting to germinate
and grow.
יקב
בן ציון
Lehitraot javer. (I will see you soon)
